人生的最后

原来一个人没东西作的时候可以这么的恐怖。恐怖到什么东西都没做，恐怖到什么东西都没做到。今天将会是我写的最后一篇的部落格，不想再写了，写到很累很累，写到太阳也往东边跑了下去~ 一路来都以为人生是那么的崎岖，那么的难走，原来是那么的简单，用两种颜色就可以代替了“生活“这两个子，当你不开心的时候，那就用灰咯，当你很恨不开心的时候，那不就是“巨灰“咯，开心的时候“蓝“肯定离不开天空啦！很恨恨恨开心不就是“巨蓝“罢了嘛~人生中就是开心和不开心罢了嘛，不是蓝就是灰咯，有什么那么复杂？？？？很多东西都很简单罢了，either 分手 或者 不分手！喜欢 或 不喜欢！ 没其他的啦~ 就是那么简单 有 或 没有， 接受 或 不接受。就是这个看跟不看之间，我看回了和一大班朋友去爬山的时候的照片，原来我也曾经有过一些正式灿烂的笑容，突然好想好想回到以前的我，现在到底是什么一回事？我也不知道！别再灰了啦！醒来啦！够了啦！不写了。。。。再见各位！

sorry not a pill of a problem!!

sorry not a word to solve problem, u think after did somethings then say sorry all the things will become good? and all the problem will gone? fuckssss off plz

some nice sentence

My kind of math
M = :(
M + F = :)
M + F² = :))

negative side

0201 edi he alone sit at genting starbuck, don't know how to say the feeling,
just feel damn fucking lonely, see them all one pair pair, really feel so suck,
keep thinking of her, keep thinking about the time when with her, the feeling
really so suck, keep on thinking if now still with her, he will so happy and feel
so happinese, he keep blame hisself, why why? why dont maintain the relation porperly
, feel damn fucking regret...he really jelous when saw one pairpair, when saw how
sweet is them, and he think only he alone, his heart keep on think about her, and feel
so pain, really freaking pain! he think about so long, finally he found out the reason, he got
no ability to have to a girlfrenz, not requirement also dont have, he really suckss,
he not a good guy, he cant do well in all the things, include study...all the things
suckssss, how come become no confident at all, when? when he become like that? before
today he still keep on tell himself, must be strong make his life more wonderful, why
suddenly drop to negative again? why cannot be a happy guy? why cannot cheer up...what the
fooksss

drunk

0442 already he was drunk is this moment, he use upp all the energy to fiinish this blog. he think alot of things about her x, and the good memory, he think that she is a very good gf. she very care him, she very very care him...he so sad so sad and so sad. he still love her and he still cant put down ehr...cant still loveee

c+ 痛 c+

0521的时候，下起了一场雨。把温度慢慢的降低了，这个时候的他觉得很冷很冷， 很需要一张温暖的"被"。往往需要一样东西的时候她都不会出现，当你没什么想要的时候，她却跟你说："你怎样了？" 这种感觉真的很令人讨厌。今天的他得到了他一直在担心的东西， 成绩！他讲过，他希望他的成绩永远都会是c+，果然的这次的成绩得到了两个c+，因为他的x的名叫c+嘛~不懂该开心还是要把自己当作是很开心,两科都过了因该很开心,但却被这两个c把心情搞到非一般的低落，"回忆"已经变成了一种伤人的武器，也可以作为一粒很好的开心药丸！在他的世界里，却是一把很锋利的刀，这把刀已经深深的插入的他的心，而现在就是慢慢拔出来的时候，这个时候才是真正开始痛得时候。越好的回忆，越开心的地回忆，越开心的时刻，对那来说就换来了：很堕落的时候，很痛的时候和很一段很难熬和一个不懂几时才会完的"思念"！天下了雨，就好像流下了泪，是否可怜他呢？我就说不是，天在伤心为什么人可以笨到这样！为什么他会创造这种这么笨的生物出来。其实爱情比任何东西都难算！比任何东西都难维持！因为爱情没得算得！算不到的！预测不到到底会怎样的！痛仍然在，伤痕仍然在慢慢的流下血，伤口痊愈的时间还再慢慢的倒流!好回的时间到底会是几时？是不是要等到河流都会逆流的时候？是几时~~~~~~~~~~？？

原来爱情这么伤

今天的他取道了很多地方，去了很多很多他跟她充满了回忆的地方，他去到了"the ship"吃了一个晚餐，原来一个简单的起点可以带到一个人回到去那么那么的远，可以令到一个人对到那么那么的从前！penang 是他们相识的地方， 也是他们第一次一起晚餐的地方，就一个简单的晚餐令到他对所有的一切失去了味道，很好吃的牛扒已经变成了一块简简单单的肉！完全没完了味道。再吃多一口，就只是苦的味道了！也不会再想把这块肉放进口。原来好的东西不回绵绵不绝的，不好的或痛得就会了，就感觉上好像爱上了你一样，时常都陪在你左右！他朋友把他带到了他第一次让他女友请他吃东西的地方，他想起了更多更多的回忆，很恨恨不懂怎样说！为什么为什么？人可以这么的弱，很大件事吗？不可以坚强一点吗？不可以把那部当作一回事吗?是怎样的？他好像真的不懂!原来爱情这么伤，比想像中还难！泪水总是不听话，幸福躲起来不声不响！

what a people did somethings, that is not a actually meanings...

Finally, he got the courage to do that, he sms her and ask her is it she find him in skype? when he saw the reply, he got a little bit disappointed, the message reply said that was a mistake, she click wrong already...he try end the conversation immediately, but he failed, she reply one more message and ask him how are recently? busying with exam, actually he don't know what he doing, he replied a message said:"i think this is non of your business already, i think you no need to know also.bye.take care."
after sent the message, the guy thinking ..............it is correct what he did just now? at the end, he was agree what he did, because he don't wan disturb her 's life again, he just wan let her hate him! and then totally forget him, even don't himself include in her life, even a small memory also don't wan....the reply of her, make him feel so satisfy...because he know he's mission complete, he's sure will very very hate him in this moment, and sure that his 'x forever wont find him again...now only he realize, the changes of a heart can be so big different, after 15mins, his heart start to bleeding, he not willing to that actually, he still love the girl so much, but this is one of the way to forget and let the girl life better....he said some tings:"like a people not must together with her, can see a lot of happiness and life with happiness then every things is already perfect!"

痛上加痛得感觉！

今天的他病了起来，却发生了一件很搞笑的事，他发了一个梦，在梦里他他驾车去了一个很远很远的地方，兜兜转转的他把车驾到了他以前女朋友的家，他还偷偷的进去了，就打算在哪儿借住一晚，睡在一块冷冰冰的得地上的他，想起了很多很多与他一起又多么的开心，他还在想虽然现在是这么近的距离，只有一幅墙的距离，但他们的感情已经是连一幅墙的距离已没有了。当他睡着了的时候，她仍然拿出了一个温暖被轻轻的把被给他盖上，在假装睡着了他，心里开始流下了不舍得的眼泪，那个时候的他真的很想醒来把她紧紧地抱着，可是最后他什么也没做，只有眼泪在默默的流下！这个梦对他来说只是一个充满泪水的噩梦！起来了的他才觉得痛上再加一点痛得感觉是怎样的！

0432

i really feel so sad, so sad that things happen in my friend's life...when see she so suffer i really feel wan cry...hope she will be ok soon...hope everyone who near me having a very wonderful life and happiness always with them...sadness don't go to them...when i saw them having a suffer life i really feel very heart pain, and finally i realize all the case is only small case...compare with other, they all having a very heavy rock inside the heart...they really feel so painful!!!! hope sky will open the eye and always protect those person who need to be protect...

3 new engineering prove

already 0546, i think consider morning already, what a normal person will do in this time? i think a normal person should sleeping in this time, but she is the one sit in front of the computer, holding a pen and start writing somethings about her life and what she experienced. she is an abnormal person, because 0548 still haven sleep...she so sad because heard somethings from her friend, her mind flow up a very good sentences:"in the life, a person still can alive if he/she without a person that is together with she/he". she feel so upset, she think about why he still can live with happiness, but she cannot...the sadness is playing around her and sadness don't let her get out from the hole...it is too deep...she asking what the fuck is going on? this question wont got any reply from other...not all the question should got the answer, some question is just a question and no need any answer for it...she did very well in his future...but she did very poor in her love issue, she believe that there are no more true love in the live, just set the left eye with future and the right eye to money!!!!
true love = fucking stupid...
Specificity = fucssking stupid...
be a very good person = extremely fucssking stupid....

一句令人觉得窗口是都么有用的话。

动力火车唱到:"二零零二年的第一场雪,比以往时候来得晚一些!" 当他在驾车时,便想到另一句代替:"二零零九年的八月四号，他听到一句很对的安慰话！" 他的一个bradai当他最失落得时候跟他说了一句话,他bradai说:"就算神把所有的都门紧紧地关了起来,神都会开回一扇令你看到外面仍任有着温暖的太阳的窗!" 接下来窗已经有了,只是看看你有没有好好的把握机会去好好的善用这个可以带你从新来过的窗!不要因为门关了起来就以为没路可走了,好好的去生活,好好的找一下窗是否就在你身边.

fuckdup la...

fuckdup plz...
bad things = all the peoples go and recover it, keep on giving reason, said it got own reason wan, he did that because he got his own reason.....

good things = too good already la!!!! no people to appreciate, no people to care...even no one wan help to recover...

一痛再痛！

在一个很累很累得时候，人总会坐在某某地方休息，这个时候也是最容易乱乱想东西的时候,他想起了他跟他女朋友在一起多久了？原来只是短短的三个星期，他一直在问自己，三个星期罢了，为什么会这么痛？他身边的朋友一直都在说都在讲，"三个星期罢了,很长吗?" 这七个字就成为了一直在他脑里的问号...还是一个擦不掉的痕迹,还是一条很深很深的痕迹...他在这个寂寞又堕落的时候说了一句话,"一段感情的长短不代表一段感情的深或浅，是要看彼此对这段感情的认真度，和她有没有想过去珍惜这段感情" 他一直都在想为什么认真的往往都没有好结果？到底是他做错了什么？他对这段感情是真的很认真的！他从没想过要再往第二边走，这条直路对他来说已经是非常好的路。为什么天会这样对他呢？他对她"对她付出了这么多，她却没有感动过！" 短短的三个星期对他来说却留下了很多超多了三年的痕迹，他很怕，每当一去到一些他们一起曾经到过的地方，他的心就很自然的痛了一下，他手也慢慢了从口袋里拿出了一根烟点了起来，慢慢的烟就成为了他身边的止痛药，每当他一想到她，只有一根烟能帮到他！他在想，烟不是人都会好好的陪在他身边，帮他止痛，可是她却狠狠地流下了一道很深的伤口。还是一直流血流到不停。被人打的那种痛，不是叫痛，被门夹到了手的痛，也不叫痛，心里在痛而讲不出的那种痛才是真正的痛！被人打擦药就可以好了，可是心里的那种痛是完全没办法医的，连他自己要痛到几时，他自己也不知道，也没有一个可以预算到痛的限期到底是几时！没有珍惜过的东西是不会痛得，珍惜过的东西才会令你一痛再痛，一直再痛！

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inside a lot of song, representing a lot of special meanings, especially mandarin song, when a people feel that he/she is useless person, she/he will sing a song name "残废". this is a very nice song to describe how useless of a person. when turn to another song "missing you" then can tell out already, how much you miss a person...when a people holding the mic and singing a very sad song...can sure that she/he is experienced what the song talking about...like "我不难过" you really think that person singing in this song is not sad? no, that person is sad over already...keep telling himself/herself i not sad...is okay...every things will be better soon...fuckdup plz!! no this such of things, sad is cannot hide, can pretend happy in front of others, but the painful is still there, when? when going to end it? when going not to think about it again? the answer no one will know, no one can estimate the duration of the sadness, no one can help...i think the day of the end is the day he/she really pain until no feelings, like after take drugs...and the life will become no color, or only left one color that is "GREY"....

它又来了...

在这个宁静的凌晨，已经是四点五十六分了，他又坐在了电脑前发着呆。突然间，他想起了一首歌，歌名是 “爱太痛” ，他便开了这首歌，一边听，一边就读着歌词，原来歌是会给人带来许多的感觉，痛是其中不可淘汰的一个。每当他听到一些歌，心里就开始流泪了，为什么会这样呢？因为他曾经为他的女朋友做过一个song list， 那里还写了所有他女朋友喜欢的歌，他还答应一定会用心的唱完每一首歌给他的女朋友听，他很用心的练list里的每一首歌，希望他唱的时候是充满诚意，充满了感觉，他也希望他女朋友在听他的歌的时候会被感动到，也会感觉到他对他女朋友的那一份爱意和诚意。他是一个很-ve 的人，他的生活里从来没有出现过一首开心的歌，因为他的女朋友，他开始了人生中第一首开心的歌，数到五答应我“ ， 也因为他女朋友他的生活充满了色彩，他很谢谢“她”的出现。但是很多东西往往就不是那么的简单。爱太痛 这首歌唱：“他已经 （笑不能笑 哭不能哭 人不像人 鬼不像鬼， 朋友都说这， 不过失恋）“ 他在想真的那么简单吗？没有真真爱过，又怎么会痛呢？他一直在问 能不能不爱了? 因为爱太痛了！ 痛到快死了，也无法把你忘了！他希望可以不再爱，不再徘徊在这个处境里，他想用笑容来催眠眼泪，可是到最后眼泪往往都胜一筹，往往都不能把他的眼泪好好的控制。他是一个很爱唱歌的人，他朋友说他唱得最好听得时候就是他很伤心的时候，难道要他再继续唱歌好听吗？他到了现在还不够痛吗？伤心已经慢慢的侵入他的生活里，他的身边就剩下了蓝子和一些再唱也没有意思的歌，和可能会常伴在他身边的那个人：Mrs.伤心。

A guy said : "

Almost 3am, a guy still sit in front of computer, keep on click click and click the mouse one...what for he so late still haven sleep? finally i got it what he busying in this midnight. he viewing some pictures from his storage, what he viewing is all related he and his girl friend. all is their happy memory...is it suffer to view that in the midnight? every time he click on the mouse one, he also will feel pain, and the tears also keep dropping...this guy consider stupid? why because a girl make his life so meaningless, why because of a girl then he spoiled his life? everyone will scold him, stupid, silly this world got a lot of girl, no need end up like this because a girl. the guy said:" if you din really put effort on that, you wont feel pain! if you did, the pain is not only pain..."

不同角度的看法会令到不同的答案出现！

小心讀每一個,再用一兩秒想一想
1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
我愛你不是因為你是誰,而是我在你面前可以是誰。
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
沒有男人或女人是值得你為他流眼淚,值得的那一位,不會要你哭。
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
那人不是你所想般愛你,但不代表那人不是全心全意地愛你。
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一個真正的朋友是向著你伸手,觸動你心靈的人。
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
掛念一個人最差的方式,就是你坐在他身旁,而知道你不能擁有他。
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快樂也不要皺眉,因為你永不知道誰會愛上你的笑容。
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
在世界裡你可能只是某人,但對某人你可能是全世界。
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
不要花時間在一個不會花時間在你身上的人。
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人,讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
不要因為完結而哭,要為曾經發生而微笑。
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
這個世界永遠也會有一些傷害你的人,你要做的就是繼續去信人和小心你下次信的人。
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
在你嘗試了解其他人和盼望其他人明白你之前,先把你自己變成一個更好的人和了解你自己。
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.
不要太努力去找,最好的東西是在你最預計不到的時候出現。
REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

a funny story...

the guy said : this time of break up really too pain...every time when go some place that have memory of her...my heart like kenal knife...the painful of each knife is keep increasing...i know only 3weeks...i also don't know why i can hurt until like that...is it needed? only can tell feeling is cant control at all...actually my concept is so easy only...i just wan my love happy...she happy every things for me is okay already..i tot treat her good, always make her happy, take good care of her, then should be no problem and will be maintain the relation very good...finally i got the result is not what i think!! why the result is like that? i really cant accept it!!!!
i don't know what i did make her like that. really! i keep on ask myself i don't wan any reward de!!! i treat her good not wan her treat me good back!!!! i jz wan her happy...thats all...why? why i will get this kind of result? she wont know how much painful i having now...if she feel that leave her can make her life more happy...i decide to leave is okay for...i suffer never mind...she stay in the good life then every things will be okay.

drunk

finally, got one day no need think about every things...can sleep well...but the % of drunk also cant reach 99.9999%~ drink a lot also cant get drunk, don't know why! SIENZ! some time will keep on asking why, but at the end also can't get the answer. nini also will say don't sad don't so sad, you! 0 every things is 0 you not really want why take take it???!?!?!??!??!?!?!?

一个人的心情可以到怎样？

不在乎你,又怎么会痛?
曾经想过 , 如果我不是我 , 我不用烦恼我现在的烦恼
如果不曾遇上你 , 那么生活将是平淡如水更加枯燥乏味 如果不曾知道你是谁 , 那么我的心里不会多了一个名字
如果不曾凝视你的眼神 , 那么孤寂的心怎可能加快跳动
因为喜欢了你 , 所以我成了一块玻璃般不堪一击 ,
我害怕失去你而摔落地 , 换来粉身碎骨 , 弄得遍体鳞伤 ,
或许我想得太多 , 问得太多 , 说得太多 , 无论如何也明白不到你的心
难过的寂夜里 , 总是格外安静 , 我听见了自己柔弱的呼吸
遗下悵惘与哀伤伴我进入眠夜
闭起疲倦的双眼 , 我还是看见你不能抹灭掉的笑容
我究竟 , 还要在这里徘徊多久 ?
我究竟 , 仍要在这里停滞多久 ?
什么时候 , 才能够走出来 , 嚐嚐属於我的蓝天与白云
我怕到时候 , 我已经再没有能力了…
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女孩子很难知道的6件事(Part2)

(2)每次和你在一起的时候,他会很沉默,明明牵着你的手,却一会看天一会看云,你会认为他不喜欢 你,错了,此时他眼里只有你,只是他习惯了一个人的感觉.
(3)当你在也受不住沉默的时候,你提出分手.他没有忧郁一刻便答应了,你认为他是真的不爱你,错了,他只要幸福快乐,满足你所有欲望,所以宁可忍痛退出.
(4)他答应以后,便故作一点也不在乎的,漫无经心的走掉了,但是你永远也不会知道他心里是多么难过,也许这是他真的知道世界上有一种感觉叫欲哭无泪..
(5)分手后,他每次走过你身边,都会显得更无所谓,但是你不会知道,当你转身只后,他会静静望着你的背影偷偷留泪
(6)就在你终于知道他是多么爱你并且你也仍爱着他的情况下,你去他的廎室找他,推开门,他正在椅在床上默默叹气,你走进她他,他却顾也不顾的一把把你抱住,你笑了,这时却觉得衣襟湿湿的,你永远也不会知道,你的这个笑容,是他用多少不绵的泪夜换来的.

6 rules and regulation(女孩子很难知道的6件事)

1.当你一个孤单的男孩常对你偷偷一笑时,他已经喜欢了你!

"是真的吗?"

今天有很多个"是真的吗?" 想得到答案. 第一，每当想跟一个人分手时候，往往都会想，冷静一点！从新好好从组你的心情，对她/他好一点，因该会没问题。原来这个就是一个很不好的提醒，就是在这个 你很想用心去挽回的时候，他/她就会跟你提出了"分开"！为什么会这样呢？没人可以解释。这个"是真的吗？" 在我的身边也有很多次的出现！最后一句很同意的话"来得快, 去得快, 如果不会, 取得更快"

"Presentation" & "Exam"

when we saw "presentation" this word, some students will panic and nervous. "Exam" this word more scary in student's life... A group name Infinity, they trying the best to do well in the presentation but finally they consider failed... this experience make everyone moody and sad. If the time can return back, than every things will be very good and perfect. the next part will talk about exam!! only can use one word to describe "useless". the main reason is just a simple question but cannot answer. really fuckdup...and so disappointed !!!!

"暂时分手" & " 好 " 都不好啊?

何谓 ''暂时分手''? 我相信很少人可以接受到这四个字，讲的一方一定觉得这四个字可以给到他们时间想想他们自己要的是什么？要求的是什么？这不会很自私吗？当然我写这个的时候我一定有身同感受啦~而且还是听得那一方！

好啦, 学了什么是暂时分手, 我们再来看看这个字 "好". 到了 二零零九年 六月 二十四日, 我人生开始一段很难接受的人生, 我遇到了一个就算我去 google search 也找不到的答案的问题! 那个问题就是
" 好 " 都不好啊? 为什么我会说这个呢? 我可以很肯定的说因为我也不知道! 我真的很希望这个"问题" 可以找到她/他的另一半, 她/他就是 "答案"! 我有个朋友很对电脑 "一点也没有不懂", 就是很厉害啦~ 当我问他问题的时候,他会讲 : " diuzzz~ google search la!! " 到了这一天我终于有一个问题, 他是不会diu我, 叫我去google search, 因为我相信他也不会答我这个问题! 我也答会他一句了: " diuzzzz~~~google 都不是好 " geng " ze ma~"....

Introduction of sadness

The first question i would like to ask is what is sad? i believe that every one had go through the experience of sad....