negative side

0201 edi he alone sit at genting starbuck, don't know how to say the feeling,
just feel damn fucking lonely, see them all one pair pair, really feel so suck,
keep thinking of her, keep thinking about the time when with her, the feeling
really so suck, keep on thinking if now still with her, he will so happy and feel
so happinese, he keep blame hisself, why why? why dont maintain the relation porperly
, feel damn fucking regret...he really jelous when saw one pairpair, when saw how
sweet is them, and he think only he alone, his heart keep on think about her, and feel
so pain, really freaking pain! he think about so long, finally he found out the reason, he got
no ability to have to a girlfrenz, not requirement also dont have, he really suckss,
he not a good guy, he cant do well in all the things, include study...all the things
suckssss, how come become no confident at all, when? when he become like that? before
today he still keep on tell himself, must be strong make his life more wonderful, why
suddenly drop to negative again? why cannot be a happy guy? why cannot cheer up...what the
fooksss

drunk

0442 already he was drunk is this moment, he use upp all the energy to fiinish this blog. he think alot of things about her x, and the good memory, he think that she is a very good gf. she very care him, she very very care him...he so sad so sad and so sad. he still love her and he still cant put down ehr...cant still loveee

c+ 痛 c+

0521的时候，下起了一场雨。把温度慢慢的降低了，这个时候的他觉得很冷很冷， 很需要一张温暖的"被"。往往需要一样东西的时候她都不会出现，当你没什么想要的时候，她却跟你说："你怎样了？" 这种感觉真的很令人讨厌。今天的他得到了他一直在担心的东西， 成绩！他讲过，他希望他的成绩永远都会是c+，果然的这次的成绩得到了两个c+，因为他的x的名叫c+嘛~不懂该开心还是要把自己当作是很开心,两科都过了因该很开心,但却被这两个c把心情搞到非一般的低落，"回忆"已经变成了一种伤人的武器，也可以作为一粒很好的开心药丸！在他的世界里，却是一把很锋利的刀，这把刀已经深深的插入的他的心，而现在就是慢慢拔出来的时候，这个时候才是真正开始痛得时候。越好的回忆，越开心的地回忆，越开心的时刻，对那来说就换来了：很堕落的时候，很痛的时候和很一段很难熬和一个不懂几时才会完的"思念"！天下了雨，就好像流下了泪，是否可怜他呢？我就说不是，天在伤心为什么人可以笨到这样！为什么他会创造这种这么笨的生物出来。其实爱情比任何东西都难算！比任何东西都难维持！因为爱情没得算得！算不到的！预测不到到底会怎样的！痛仍然在，伤痕仍然在慢慢的流下血，伤口痊愈的时间还再慢慢的倒流!好回的时间到底会是几时？是不是要等到河流都会逆流的时候？是几时~~~~~~~~~~？？

原来爱情这么伤

今天的他取道了很多地方，去了很多很多他跟她充满了回忆的地方，他去到了"the ship"吃了一个晚餐，原来一个简单的起点可以带到一个人回到去那么那么的远，可以令到一个人对到那么那么的从前！penang 是他们相识的地方， 也是他们第一次一起晚餐的地方，就一个简单的晚餐令到他对所有的一切失去了味道，很好吃的牛扒已经变成了一块简简单单的肉！完全没完了味道。再吃多一口，就只是苦的味道了！也不会再想把这块肉放进口。原来好的东西不回绵绵不绝的，不好的或痛得就会了，就感觉上好像爱上了你一样，时常都陪在你左右！他朋友把他带到了他第一次让他女友请他吃东西的地方，他想起了更多更多的回忆，很恨恨不懂怎样说！为什么为什么？人可以这么的弱，很大件事吗？不可以坚强一点吗？不可以把那部当作一回事吗?是怎样的？他好像真的不懂!原来爱情这么伤，比想像中还难！泪水总是不听话，幸福躲起来不声不响！

what a people did somethings, that is not a actually meanings...

Finally, he got the courage to do that, he sms her and ask her is it she find him in skype? when he saw the reply, he got a little bit disappointed, the message reply said that was a mistake, she click wrong already...he try end the conversation immediately, but he failed, she reply one more message and ask him how are recently? busying with exam, actually he don't know what he doing, he replied a message said:"i think this is non of your business already, i think you no need to know also.bye.take care."
after sent the message, the guy thinking ..............it is correct what he did just now? at the end, he was agree what he did, because he don't wan disturb her 's life again, he just wan let her hate him! and then totally forget him, even don't himself include in her life, even a small memory also don't wan....the reply of her, make him feel so satisfy...because he know he's mission complete, he's sure will very very hate him in this moment, and sure that his 'x forever wont find him again...now only he realize, the changes of a heart can be so big different, after 15mins, his heart start to bleeding, he not willing to that actually, he still love the girl so much, but this is one of the way to forget and let the girl life better....he said some tings:"like a people not must together with her, can see a lot of happiness and life with happiness then every things is already perfect!"

痛上加痛得感觉！

今天的他病了起来，却发生了一件很搞笑的事，他发了一个梦，在梦里他他驾车去了一个很远很远的地方，兜兜转转的他把车驾到了他以前女朋友的家，他还偷偷的进去了，就打算在哪儿借住一晚，睡在一块冷冰冰的得地上的他，想起了很多很多与他一起又多么的开心，他还在想虽然现在是这么近的距离，只有一幅墙的距离，但他们的感情已经是连一幅墙的距离已没有了。当他睡着了的时候，她仍然拿出了一个温暖被轻轻的把被给他盖上，在假装睡着了他，心里开始流下了不舍得的眼泪，那个时候的他真的很想醒来把她紧紧地抱着，可是最后他什么也没做，只有眼泪在默默的流下！这个梦对他来说只是一个充满泪水的噩梦！起来了的他才觉得痛上再加一点痛得感觉是怎样的！

0432

i really feel so sad, so sad that things happen in my friend's life...when see she so suffer i really feel wan cry...hope she will be ok soon...hope everyone who near me having a very wonderful life and happiness always with them...sadness don't go to them...when i saw them having a suffer life i really feel very heart pain, and finally i realize all the case is only small case...compare with other, they all having a very heavy rock inside the heart...they really feel so painful!!!! hope sky will open the eye and always protect those person who need to be protect...

3 new engineering prove

already 0546, i think consider morning already, what a normal person will do in this time? i think a normal person should sleeping in this time, but she is the one sit in front of the computer, holding a pen and start writing somethings about her life and what she experienced. she is an abnormal person, because 0548 still haven sleep...she so sad because heard somethings from her friend, her mind flow up a very good sentences:"in the life, a person still can alive if he/she without a person that is together with she/he". she feel so upset, she think about why he still can live with happiness, but she cannot...the sadness is playing around her and sadness don't let her get out from the hole...it is too deep...she asking what the fuck is going on? this question wont got any reply from other...not all the question should got the answer, some question is just a question and no need any answer for it...she did very well in his future...but she did very poor in her love issue, she believe that there are no more true love in the live, just set the left eye with future and the right eye to money!!!!
true love = fucking stupid...
Specificity = fucssking stupid...
be a very good person = extremely fucssking stupid....

一句令人觉得窗口是都么有用的话。

动力火车唱到:"二零零二年的第一场雪,比以往时候来得晚一些!" 当他在驾车时,便想到另一句代替:"二零零九年的八月四号，他听到一句很对的安慰话！" 他的一个bradai当他最失落得时候跟他说了一句话,他bradai说:"就算神把所有的都门紧紧地关了起来,神都会开回一扇令你看到外面仍任有着温暖的太阳的窗!" 接下来窗已经有了,只是看看你有没有好好的把握机会去好好的善用这个可以带你从新来过的窗!不要因为门关了起来就以为没路可走了,好好的去生活,好好的找一下窗是否就在你身边.

fuckdup la...

fuckdup plz...
bad things = all the peoples go and recover it, keep on giving reason, said it got own reason wan, he did that because he got his own reason.....

good things = too good already la!!!! no people to appreciate, no people to care...even no one wan help to recover...

一痛再痛！

在一个很累很累得时候，人总会坐在某某地方休息，这个时候也是最容易乱乱想东西的时候,他想起了他跟他女朋友在一起多久了？原来只是短短的三个星期，他一直在问自己，三个星期罢了，为什么会这么痛？他身边的朋友一直都在说都在讲，"三个星期罢了,很长吗?" 这七个字就成为了一直在他脑里的问号...还是一个擦不掉的痕迹,还是一条很深很深的痕迹...他在这个寂寞又堕落的时候说了一句话,"一段感情的长短不代表一段感情的深或浅，是要看彼此对这段感情的认真度，和她有没有想过去珍惜这段感情" 他一直都在想为什么认真的往往都没有好结果？到底是他做错了什么？他对这段感情是真的很认真的！他从没想过要再往第二边走，这条直路对他来说已经是非常好的路。为什么天会这样对他呢？他对她"对她付出了这么多，她却没有感动过！" 短短的三个星期对他来说却留下了很多超多了三年的痕迹，他很怕，每当一去到一些他们一起曾经到过的地方，他的心就很自然的痛了一下，他手也慢慢了从口袋里拿出了一根烟点了起来，慢慢的烟就成为了他身边的止痛药，每当他一想到她，只有一根烟能帮到他！他在想，烟不是人都会好好的陪在他身边，帮他止痛，可是她却狠狠地流下了一道很深的伤口。还是一直流血流到不停。被人打的那种痛，不是叫痛，被门夹到了手的痛，也不叫痛，心里在痛而讲不出的那种痛才是真正的痛！被人打擦药就可以好了，可是心里的那种痛是完全没办法医的，连他自己要痛到几时，他自己也不知道，也没有一个可以预算到痛的限期到底是几时！没有珍惜过的东西是不会痛得，珍惜过的东西才会令你一痛再痛，一直再痛！